I’ve read all of the very kind emails and I wanted to try and share with you what it was like.
I want to remember every feeling I had yesterday forever. I had a lot of moments of doubt, wondering why I was there and how things would play out. I worked really hard to stay positive. I kept going through the race in my head and picturing myself being strong. I broke all of my easy runs into 15 min segments and imagined where I would be in the race, how I would feel.
I had by doubts though, many, many doubts. I have a hard time admitting weakness and this year was a trying year for me. I had so many awesome workouts but struggled with my Achilles. The hardest part was knowing when to push and when to be confident enough to back off. I did not always make the wisest decisions, but I did try to learn from the mistakes. I have finished races in disappointed shock probably just as many times as I have finished knowing I did my best. I knew there was a very good possibility I might have finished the race and headed into the tunnel in tears. I think that because it hasn’t come easy, I don’t take it for granted and moments like yesterday are so sweet.
The day before the race was very typical. I think most people would be shocked at how restful the day of a big race is. I did my best to not get too excited early, and spent a good bit of the day reading a novel, getting physio and stretching. Once I had my shower and got my Canadian gear, I felt prepared.
I arrived at the track good and early, to relax before warm up. Drinking lots of fluids and being nervous leads to many trips to the Chinese style outhouses (which I actually think are a lot cleaner then most western style outhouses…). I was surprisingly relaxed and even managed a new high score on a very addicting “bubbles” game on my phone!
Once I got my IPod on and began to warm up it really sunk in that I was at the Olympics and about to race. I took a moment to look up at the birds nest that was glowing and watch the Olympic flame. The buildings around had enormous (7 story!) TV screens showing highlights of the games. Before I knew, it was time to enter the first call room.
In the call room, I put on my spikes, made a final trip to the bathroom and made some small talk with my competitors before being lead to the 2nd call room. In the 2nd call room, there was a 60m track to do some more strides, as well as a video of the 1st heat. I could not really be still enough to watch it, but I was able to see the 7th place time. After ten minutes, it was time to enter the stadium.
I had purposely not been in the stadium when it was full. And it was very full! It was gorgeous. I tried to be discrete and look for my family but there was way too many people, and lots of incredibly bright lights. I did a few more strides and again took a moment to enjoy just being on the track.
My race plan was to sit relaxed on the inside, stay out of the pushing and shoving and be patient. That is pretty much what I did. The race went out quite slow at first and then gradually picked up to a very decent clip. I saw a few splits that made me think it might be possible to run really fast. I have a hard time remembering everything that happens in races. When I am focused I think I just block things out. I fell away from the pack somewhere after 3k, and slowly started to lose focus and feel pain. In front of me someone went down with an injury or something. Unfortunate for her, but for me it reminded me that everyone was hurting, and I can handle the pain. It also meant I was one place closer to the final. I put on a good surge and caught the next girl too. I don’t remember if I caught one more or any of the details. I just know that I ran hard. It wasn’t one of those magical races when everything feels so good and easy. It was quite a painful race for me really. But when I crossed the line, I knew I had a PB. I knew I ran as hard as I could on the day and I was pretty sure I was in the final. I had a big smile on my face and I was proud to be there. It probably looked funny to some, that I finished 8th and was so excited. But why not? Not everyone gets to race at the Olympics, even less get to make the final, and even less run their personal best.
After the race I weaved through the media lines, got my recovery bar and drinks and headed for the cool down area. I called Sean and got in a very light cool down. My Achilles was very sore, so rehab became my next goal. I was able to find Jonathan, mom, dad, Mike, Pete, Marj, Leigh and the gang for a big hug, kiss and a “few” pictures. I ate a super quick dinner and had a massage, ice bath and physio. I tried to get a decent nights sleep but that was impossible. I tried everything, an advil pm, a glass of wine, finished a book and meditated…. It’s a good thing I have two and a half days of rest to prepare for the Olympic final!
Thanks for all of the encouragement and positive thoughts.
With Love, Megan